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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Beware: This is not a personal post but its more like a random post to annoy people…muahahaha…and for the sake of updating…

It all began with serious conversations in the room which broke into laughter and gossip session with a bunch of people that all cramps on the bed…

Then a loud noise broke the already loud noise…what was it??? And everyone started staring at each other…

Before we knew it, it was time to evacuate…so reluctantly we picked up all our stuffs and walked out of the apartments…and all was being stupid…forgot to rush to the toilet for relief before coming out into the out cold without a freaking jacket…FREEZING!!!!

In the middle of a fire drill…darn annoying…with few little monkeys in the com lab….

And who are these monkeys, hmmm we shall start with A, D, F, V and T.

A – Amanda
D – Daphne
F – Fern
V – Veewen
T – Tiffany

So being cold…and freezing and wanting to pee…we are annoyed….THE END cuz the alarm went off…free to go? Not so sure but I got to go…

Shall talk bout the monkeys next time…chao~

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5:07 PM

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Sunday, January 25, 2009

I really can’t sleep…thanks to you know who…haha…

But somehow tonight’s phone call really cheered me up a lot…I don’t know how and I don’t know why…

This is really a short note but thanks a lot…I really appreciate it…

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Some feelings can’t be expressed through words alone…I know I’m a pain in the ass at times when my mood swing hits…but I really don’t mean to hurt you…it’s like I’ve said…there’s just too much in this head and I hate being me…it hinders me from moving on…but it’s not all about me; I’ve realize that at the end of the day…every single one that cares for me gets dragged into the picture…

I admit I am a sentimental person and some days I really wished I was born with harder emotions…but then I won’t be me anymore…I would be someone else…forget it…I always contradict myself…

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The coffee is in action…I’m not in the right state of mind for now…haha

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Good bye^^

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3:47 AM

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Friday, January 23, 2009

I finally found that feeling back again…it’s not an inviting feeling…it shouldn’t even be here…it shoulg be gone but sometimes it easier said than done…it was just hiding behind some stones and now when the stones were moved, it then revealed themselves…

Sometimes being immune to something doesn’t mean you can go on doing it cuz at the end of it all…and extreme of something will eventually come back to something…

Forget my rambling…I just want to rant…

It’s the Chinese new year…it has got to change before I leave…let me go…

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11:18 PM

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Thursday, January 22, 2009

To see all that is going on now with the people around me…it gives me a sense of fear, fear of loving someone cuz at the end of the day hurt is just gonna prevail…

-The greatest fear is FEAR itself-

Let’s hope it won’t stop me from loving in the future…

/takes a deep breath/

Still living aimlessly for now…

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11:17 AM

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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Don’t tangle yourself when you don’t wanna get involved…cuz once you’re in it, it’s hard to detach without losing something in it…it’s still a lesson I need to learn…I need to grow up…

I’m living day to day as thought I just want times to pass…what’s my aim, my goal???

I seek company whenever I’m alone…is it the fear of being alone that I see?

This heart is getting cold…and I’m trying my best to keep it warm…

Let’s continue to let this wound heal…it takes time…

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9:44 PM

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Friday, January 16, 2009

I took a few nights off from my com this few days and went to build models…and as I built them there was a sense of peace…I realize when I was doing so there was nothing else left in my mind to think but to just concentrate on what goes next and what the outcome will be…

So it kinda saddens me as I’m working on the last model before I leave on feb…

What am I leaving behind? And what am I leaving for?

No answer…my mind hung up on me…

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2:52 PM

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Monday, January 12, 2009

I hate the dark…I woke up this morning and stared into my gloomy room…something felt like it was missing…

So I went downstairs, but as I stepped out the room it felt darker than usual…

There were no lights on…but was that the real reason?

And I begin to ask myself why does this darkness chill my soul? It felt empty, it felt hurt…feels like its bleeding now…

Something must be missing…I want to break free…I’ve never been this clear but I really want to know…cuz I’m hurting…

It’s still raining, it never stopped since yesterday…does the weather represent my heart?

But I know soon the sun will soon rise from behind the clouds and clear the sky…I’m waiting for the sun in my life…

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Forever is a something I never knew would last till the day I met you…when can I ever say that?

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2:22 PM

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